Wednesday, October 1, 2008

No. 102

So i haven't posted in a while. Not sure what to say. A lot has happened and not a lot has happened. I wish i kept up with this better. My conversation logs are a better record of my life. I'm not sure how to keep up with this.

Anyways, i went to Canandaigua, New York with Robin and the Hayashis. It was fun. I have a piece of paper from the trip with some notes:
  • Sadness is not a part of me, just a state of being. 
    • I guess i've always felt attached to being depressed.
  • Brittany was sexually assaulted when she was twelve. 
    • I had just found that out before the trip and i guess i wanted to write about it. I have no idea what i should do about posting information about others on this blog. Nobody reads it, so it's okay, right? Sort of like posting it on a sign in the middle of some woods that nobody ever goes through.
  • I owe Robin a lot for my current state of happiness. 
    • Yeah, i felt happy. You can still see some really sad undertones there though. 
  • She's everything i want to be. 
    • She's together and all that. I'm not. Still, i guess i wouldn't give up who i am. 
  • I will be your ugly friend
    • to make you more beautiful

It seems like when i have stuff to write about, i put off writing it. Hm

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