Well, i haven't felt suicidal in a while. I think i've grown accustomed to how i act and feel now. I'm alone. I've started watching anime on Adult Swim. Watching it makes me feel better. The dissatisfaction i feel in my own life melts away when i'm watching these stories on the television screen. It's because i wish i could be a hero. I still don't know who i want to be, who i'm supposed to be. I don't know who i am.
I wonder what makes someone suicidal different. People don't think they could understand someone who was suicidal but i have been able to relate to people just fine without them knowing. I mean i see myself as really a logical person and not the type to give in into those sort of thoughts. Suicide seems so illogical
to people and maybe it is, but what is it that makes a person suicidal? Does logic really have anything to do with it? Is it mindset? Was i really suicidal?
Looking back on it, maybe it was logic, or maybe it was just mindset. Maybe it's the difference between an optimist and a pessimist.
Optimists and pessimists. I have an interesting take on these. Whoever says they're a realist is full of shit. Everyone has their own perception of what is realistic. Optimists are optimists because they tend to see things that way more than other people, but aren't they realists in their own eyes? The same goes for pessimists. Realists just like to sound like they're perception of what's realistic is more realistic that anyone else's.
When an optimist or pessimist recognizes that an idea of theirs might just be them being optimistic or pessimistic, they reveal they they do in fact know what is "more realistic". What optimists have is hope.
I wonder what makes someone suicidal different. People don't think they could understand someone who was suicidal but i have been able to relate to people just fine without them knowing. I mean i see myself as really a logical person and not the type to give in into those sort of thoughts. Suicide seems so illogical
to people and maybe it is, but what is it that makes a person suicidal? Does logic really have anything to do with it? Is it mindset? Was i really suicidal?
Looking back on it, maybe it was logic, or maybe it was just mindset. Maybe it's the difference between an optimist and a pessimist.
Optimists and pessimists. I have an interesting take on these. Whoever says they're a realist is full of shit. Everyone has their own perception of what is realistic. Optimists are optimists because they tend to see things that way more than other people, but aren't they realists in their own eyes? The same goes for pessimists. Realists just like to sound like they're perception of what's realistic is more realistic that anyone else's.
When an optimist or pessimist recognizes that an idea of theirs might just be them being optimistic or pessimistic, they reveal they they do in fact know what is "more realistic". What optimists have is hope.
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