No. 84

This took me a while to figure out but i got it. There are two reviews.

The first is by Robin (2005-01-03): "I swear I'm almost crying it's so sad. Its very beautiful and so much emotion behind it...One of your best, I love it, love it, love it. Amazing, you're so freaking good..."

The second by Paulina (2005-01-04): "danny, this is amazing. i nearly cried as i read your words. i should come back here more often, i see what i was missing. if that is actually true and if it did happen to you, im so sorry. i have had htings like that happen to me so many times...we should talk more often. i cant even find a word to describe this, im speechless. or typeless. anyways, yeah. i wish i could write as well as you can.

lovepaulina"

This one got a little confusing for me. There were two backup copies that i couldn't open and i didn't realize i had the originals. Then when i found the originals, i had three of them. I compared them and the second one just adds the line, "The strain too great for my head" and the last one just seems to be in a different front than the second and doesn't have the title at the top (which is the one on fictionpress).

Version 1, Modified: Tue 22 Feb 2005 02:56:32 PM EST

Version 2, Modified: Tue 22 Feb 2005 02:56:26 PM EST

Version 3, Modified: Tue 04 Jan 2005 09:00:48 PM EST

Weird, right? The old ones were last modified after the new one.

http://www.fictionpress.com/s/1798868/1/Awake_In_A_Dream (01-03-05)

Awake In a Dream

I saw the girl,
I went with her.
I knew not who she was nor where we were headed.
She took me to a place I can't describe
A faint memory
Of a lone car ride
It was a dead end
The pain was sharp
But short and sweet
I fell to the ground
Or something quite like it
My life flashed before my eyes
And there I was awake,
Still alive
But this dream I was in
Left me numb
So desperate to feel
The cool breeze,
The freezing chill
My lifeless body
Against cold hard steel
I left my body,
Not knowing where lies still
Now I was gone
Disappeared
Vanished from this air
But I was still watching
From everywhere
I saw you
Pass though your life
Falling apart, piece by piece
Trying so desperately to escape
As desperate as I wanted to come back
With the world coming to an end just as you said
In tears you passed though me
And I could bear it no longer
The strain too great for my head
I needed to feel you and hold you once more
And then it'd be fine
And I could drop dead
I could fall asleep
Finally just for it all to end
Dead asleep in this dream
Never to wake up.
I needed to be there
I wanted with you
But now I'm not so sure,
That that is so true.
I painfully watched your lives pass
Sore without the life of me,
Powerless in such agony
Just wanted to be that hero
In that dream,
I never got to be.

Reading these, i feel like there has to be something to the words. Maybe meaning by mistake? Well, not mistake, but the whole idea of just recieving meaning fom the reader and not the writer.